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2007-09-20T12:27:00.000+08:00

I had left ED and SP services.

Now am at a place where I dislike. Kind of regret my decision leaving ED.

Lesson learnt.

2007-04-19T15:25:00.000+08:00

Really very angry! He makes my blood boil almost everytime there is communication. I rather don't talk to him. grrrrrr....

I really wonder what is wrong, with his brain or my brain?

Arghhh.... He spoil my day... really spoil my day... everything here seems bad to me. Just 1 week more, can't he just give me some peace?

Y muz he die die want to make things worse? things have already been improved, we talked again, then now he make it worse. I really hate him man... arghh...

I don't know why things changes...

2007-04-14T18:44:00.000+08:00

LONG time nv sit at counter. nothing chances,still as many patients, some are still as irritating, same still complain about the same things that many irritating ppl complained before, which makes them irritating too. haha.. those regular patients are still coming everyday.

I wonder howz singapore power like... =(

2007-04-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Feeling unhappy and sad..

But it will be over and soon ill forget about it.

Jiayou =)

2007-01-22T20:59:00.000+08:00

World class service my shit.. grr... damn tired...

Anyway, I really feel that she is very cool! =D ~~~

Am waiting for MOE to reply me, I really hope to be shortlisted.. The job is 100 times more meaningful than what I am doin now.. by mid feb, if no reply... then I shall resign ttsh n werk somewhere. Mayb transfere to do different thing. As long as I wont stuck here. I mean it this time, I want to get out of this place.

Jiayou ~~~~~~ =(

2007-01-03T19:03:00.000+08:00

a stupid man here is scoldin the staffs here upside down. one of the typical irritating man who tot that the whole hospital, he is the only patient. wad I dun understand is since he got the energy to scold everyone, wth is wrong with him. he can even shout louder than the nurse, doctors, security! hahah...

this morning went exercise with dear... damn fun... i need to jog n swim more! muacks!

2006-11-09T10:40:00.000+08:00

gg to tighten my braces ltr... sian, gg to be painful le..

Had decided to go to Bangkok durin dec... cant wait man! Excited!! Hope it will be fun! Haiz, I really no heart to work !

2006-10-28T20:16:00.000+08:00

sucks... ic push work to me again!

2006-10-25T14:28:00.000+08:00

Tml is my day off... Getting very sick of working in this sickening environment where there is hardly any staff walfare... minus all those standard things like medical entitlments lar.. Haiz.. I must endure till april '07... 4 more mths... Anticipating for dec bonus tho.. oh yar, another good thing is that I can can bonus every half yr.. =) But how bout the stress... haiz...

On morning shift today.. There is this 3 hrs break before my test at 6... Maybe I shall use the 3 hrs to study a bit and get the cert...

Grrr.... Very bored everyday... also duno y... and a bit tired, like walk a bit will die.. wth..

2006-10-09T05:30:00.000+08:00

I blog only when doing nite shift... Duno y.. but itz a good thing I got the time to blog..
haha... Tml the xxxxxx xxx woman coming in... Duno y they always like to put me on nite with her.. Damnit....
At least this rnd got Christy for 3 nites, still nt so bad...

Now is the fasting month, and I really think that my Dayan is no different from pig.. I mean it.. All he does nowadays is to slp n slp n slp n slp... Even on his off days, he slp his days away instead of meeting up w me... I told him he see Lim more than he see me.. He denied.. Pls lor, itz the truth... He might as well be a couple with him.. ...
Nvm, he can continue to slp more... And he is lazy as well... How.... Nvm... I alrdy see no point in complainin or wad... Cant change... Tell him also no point.. argh..

i can only go back at 8... All the shift delay for an hr... I think the workflow is getting from bad to worse...

Haiz.... I got the grumpy virus from that lazy pig.... argh..

Happy Birthday darL... itz nice coz this is the 4th or 5th birthday we spend with u..
=D

2006-09-24T06:14:00.000+08:00

tonight is the most sickening nite ever... I rather it is busy.. they change the workflow like nothing but we are all suffering.. they are all slpin at home while we are here getting scoldings.. grrr... wth... and the worse thing is that the doc are not even inform and they stupidly keep gettin us into trouble troubles n MORE troublesss... ARGHHH.... So f*cking irritated...

40 more minutes.. I cant wait to go back.. the ppl I work with aint very nice either... all idiots lazy idiots.... arghhhhh...

2006-09-13T10:17:00.000+08:00

Made full use of my 2 miserable AL... Went to sentosa with dear, lim and a fren on friday... Very fun.. Cant wait to go again.. and the next time I go, he better choose the right time for me... nevertheless, itz still very fun... heh... as long as he is around..

Went over to chalet at night... lucky jiji sent me there.. if not the cab fare would have cost me a bomb... On sat mor, went cycling with sis n eldric then to wild wild wet with cuz.. very fun... haha..

that bastard is back... i hate to see his fuckin face... haiz..

Slept at 0515 hrs ytd... woke up at 6... discuss many many many things with dear.. it's a good thing... yeah... I know I will nv b lonely again coz I have him in my life.. neither will he be left alone.. even if the whole world forgets about him, I'll always love him.. yes, I love him lots...
heh... =)

2006-09-06T13:01:00.000+08:00

will be going on 3 days AL soon!! Yay!! One more day tml!
Jiayou!!

Workin AM shift... one more hour to go... dear dear werkin too... Heh... some motivation for me! can see him! heh.. hope 311 come more often today! Cant wait for fri!!

2006-08-28T06:15:00.000+08:00

I think I am going to die soon... I am freaking sleepy and tired!!! I can't believe I only slept for 3 hours ytd... Haiz... If this goes on, i'll sure die!
Not that I dont want to sit at my own place, but someone is hugging my place... Haiz... and the stupid me sitting at edx is doing all the things... wth...

Dear is working tonight!! at least some motivation... My grumpy dear came over my place with food again ytd and acc me till I go work... Haha... But the vcds he brought over is damn lousy.. not nice at all.... He had been watching korean show without english subtitles for the past few days tho he can understand a bit here n there.. and the annoying part is he will always ask 'dear wad they say?' at those exciting or sad parts... He finally cant stand me anymore I guess.. but... too bad dear ...
thursday thursday faster come!!! I wanna go cycling!! i mean learn cycling... hahhaha... Dear prepare to vomit blood tho he said he is always patience with me...

JIAYOU!!!!! itz gg to be 7 soooooon!!!

2006-08-27T08:02:00.000+08:00

One more hour to go.... 1st night finishing only... 3 more to go! Argh!

I hope all my nights will be peaceful like just now! *touchwood*

Dear doing night on Mon too!!! Heh... delivered mac to my hse ytd coz I cant get thru the line...
So sweet of him... heh... =)

I really cant wait to go home!!

2006-08-25T09:02:00.000+08:00

Dear is representing scdf for swimming ltr... Hope he wins and get ntuc vouchers! Heh... Yeah.. Love you.. He is so so sweet.... =)

Went to Dr Ang's farewell party ytd... Felt damn weird... All ppl there are so smart... Saw sister Heng and that is the most happy thing! She is in nuh now... so far..

Please please today safe safe till 1730.... Haiz..

2006-08-19T20:26:00.000+08:00

Can go back soon... Tml doin floater 9 - 4... It's Vanny's last day... Haiz...

After 1 mth, I am back in the frontline finally... I think am a bit lazy to work! Hahaha....

Dear went swimming with baby Yus lee, so funny! Plan to go aust in Dec... Must save up alrdy.. Look forward to the long holiday... Haiz.. 3 more mths ++ to go... We shall jiayou! =D

2006-08-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

I really hate to sit here and do all the stupid job... Itz so irritating and I am not sure of how to do... Y cant the drs just do things themselves... Argh....
Lotsa things waiting for me to settle, but I am really not sure how... Sickening... I rather do front line...

Dear's feet is injured... Really... Muz handle him with care...

2006-08-13T09:02:00.000+08:00

Dear is having his race now! Ar... He better jiayou! He sld still be swimming now... I wish I can go and see him race.... All thx to the stupid roster.... =( Today is supposed to be my day off.....

Tml backroom again... And lotsa stuffs I gotta take over... Itz just irritatin workin in there...

Tue off anyway... Acc him to his dental ... Haha..

2006-08-11T09:00:00.000+08:00

I hope today will b a good day... I hope I won't fall asleep when rahimah is teaching me... Haiz.. really dun like taking over her... Backroom is really not that good afterall, minus the OT that I'll be earning.. It's damn tiring, I just can't do office hours.

Talk things out finally... Hope things will improve. And I realise I got to listen to my friends, I really need to learn and to believe... Time time time.. We want to smile and cherish our times together =) Gogo Jiayou!

Watching fireworks with Vanny and Chris and hope Sharen + Rama as well... More ppl more fun coz it's been long time we went out together.

G looks very nice with her botak...

Hope time flies, I hate to sit in office!

2006-08-09T09:14:00.000+08:00

Today is Singapore's birthday! Happy 41th Birthday!

In backroom again... Actually no need to work in backroom today, but medical reports are piling up... haiz...

My dear Dayan is on night... =( He is having the nus race on sunday, I got to werk... =( And that rahimah is going on leave next week... I need to go on leave on tue too!!! haiz... they sure ask me not to go... wth..

2006-08-05T09:02:00.000+08:00

Today is finally my last day covering jacky Tan!!! haiz.. damn stress... there are still A LOT of medical reports, I wonder if he will faint on Monday..
HAhah...

Very tired working here... Grrr....

The braces are feeling quite okay other than cant really bite... Josh said in 2 weeks time I sld be okay... I hope so...
Yeah, I think he dun hate me alrdy, tho I really feel like askin him if he still does.

Hai... Big fight Big fight always fight... Critical time critical... He just dun understand.. stupid.

2006-07-22T16:48:00.000+08:00

on afternoon shift today... will be going in backroom on mon for 2 weeks... good, no need to face public! 4 more days to my dental... scare... haiz...

Went to the zoo with Dayan ytd.. think my last time there is duno how many yrs back.. quite fun lookin at animals... haha... damn hot n sticky! spent the rest of the evening at the playground below my flat.. itz nice =D heh...

good shift to me today!

2006-07-18T06:06:00.000+08:00

heh... 1 more hr to go..... tonight my last night finally... damn sleepy...

Dear came with lim n bought for me mac... he helped rama n the rest to buy too... so so nice =)

2006-07-16T06:49:00.000+08:00

my 1st night.... 3 more to go.... grrr....

today is Dear 's 1st night too... heh... but after tml he can have his day off...

tonight is consider okay, lucky no death cert for me to do!! haha....
12 more minutes can knock off....

2006-07-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

Dear's so cute =D~~~

2006-07-10T10:50:00.000+08:00

“Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you're just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky his is to have you.... The one who turns to his friends and says, 'that's her.'”

2006-07-09T10:24:00.000+08:00

5 times ... but I nv pick up nor reply....

Haiz..... Disappointed...

2006-07-08T17:54:00.000+08:00

SUPER ANGRY....it just not my day.....

first, I forget to bring my locker key for the 5th time.... then there'z this fu*kin bitch n faggot who gave me problem.....
Now, I made Van got a complain for nothing..... Stupid BITCH STUPID FAGGOT... I hope they trip and fall, and yes, stay for from h4.
the bitch and faggot walked in n out when everyone can't stand their sight... how thick skin! the worst thing is that they brought along more bitches and faggots too... CANNOT MAKE IT!

2006-07-07T14:42:00.000+08:00

2.5 more hours to go... gogo jiayou!!!

Itz mid shift that I am doin anyway... I like! Heh...

Meetin up with edmond... a bit weird... grrr....

Dayan's race is tml... He train n train n train... haiz.... i am so bored......

2006-07-02T14:26:00.000+08:00

oh man.... damn tired now... but the Dayan can still go east coast.... tho he complains to me as usual...

Fianlly met up with Susan and Beatrice ytd.... I miss you u girls.... Thank you so much Susan! I am really glad I got to know you!!! All the best for U n bobby!! Haha,.. Promoter life fun ar!

Went to meet Dayan for movie after tat.... We caugth 'Just my Luck' .... Damn funny movie but.... =X yeah..... grrrr....
We cant get any cab after that.... Haiz.... walked n walked n walked.... I almost die!!! Took NR1 home for the 1st time in my life....

Haiz.... Marc appears out of no where.... At times I really hate talking to him... I duno wad he is talking about nor wad is he expecting..... itz blinking n I cant stand it..

2006-06-30T12:38:00.000+08:00

Today is Dayan's 21th Birthday!!! Hahaha... warn him to like his present n he loves it! heh... I make resolutions for him to follow... haha.... but birthday boy is werkin night... poor thing... hope everything will goes well for dear...

2006-06-27T08:00:00.000+08:00

have never been osososososososo busy..... I feel like dying now... damn freaking tired..........

My sleeping day today, hope to get my own things done ltr in the day... tat provides I can wake up... arghh...

no beds... 75 patients waiting... over 22 hrs alrdy.... I think itz madness... Our workload is damn heavy.... lousy workflow...

2006-06-24T06:02:00.000+08:00

Dayan is injured.. this idiot is making me worry... i think his whole body ganna fracture before... and he happily wanted to want till ltr then go doc... grrrr....

2006-06-22T12:12:00.000+08:00

Gotta do OT today... sian... but for $$$... wad to do....

Watched 'silent hill' with dayan on tue.... damn lousy show... but we did something interesting! Hahaha....
we helped the boy whose feet ganna caught. Poor boy, he got an open wound which bleeds non-stop... his slipper becames pieces... and it's actually his last day in sg! the alpha took so long to come, so dear got no choice but to carry him to the car park and send the boy to hospital by a stranger's car..

Haiz... lazy to werk....

2006-06-20T10:05:00.000+08:00

grrrr... early in the morning van n me ganna complained by unreasonable freak... yeah, tat guy is really a freak...

itz rainy day yet still so many patients...

inside admission room coverin van for her break now... haiz.... I hope today will be better... yes, 'better' is enough....

oh man, nv keep my resolution... get a bit of scolding... but I cant control now than I always werk like hell... I just feel like I am dead at the end of the day!
heh... watcjin movie with Dayan ltr...

2006-06-17T14:52:00.000+08:00

I feel like melting when I see him smile =) heh .....

2006-06-16T12:17:00.000+08:00

having a mass causaulty now.. just de-grown! I am lucky coz takin over someone for break!

itz damn hot wearing full-gear... =(

2006-06-15T08:31:00.000+08:00

mor shift... but am on course ltr with Sharen...

I hope to live my life peacefully today!!! Haiz..... When itz my shift, it seems always busy... I hope my luck will be very good!

My poor dayan is sick and he is more grumpy than ever... the unlucky boy's car broke down in the middle of the road and was caught in the heavy rain on sun... but he acted hero and continued to take part in swimming competition.. he gained 300 bucks ntuc voucher tho, won 1st prize for lucky draw... ahah..
and my poor dear just knock off...

2006-06-12T20:41:00.000+08:00

am bloggin at aunt's place.. so long since I touch this com.. haha...

My birthday is over... but itz my birthday season now, coz ppl now still wishin me happy birthday... n askin me out for lunch.. lol...

the FU*KIng jerk just call me... I don't care... I hate him to the core..

everyone's great! I love the card holder, love the cards, ring, bracelet, perfumes, blah blah... itz a goood day, so I believe my yrs ahead will be good! heh heh...

I have birthday resolutions...
1) No smoking and neither can Dayan smoke.
2) Be good girl, listen to mum.
3) Drink water.

and more resolutions....

caught 'cars' with dear on sat night. He is very proud coz he is the first person to spend time with me on my special day! =) heh heh... tho he really has no talent in poems, he is still 100 or even more times better than the jerk. at least he can design t-shirts.

2006-06-10T12:02:00.000+08:00

pooor dear... gotta go back to work ... =(

Y is healthcare line such messy... grrr...

2006-06-10T08:22:00.000+08:00

very very very sleepy... slept for less than 1 hr... all thx to Dayan i woke up... reach home late ytd... watched midnight with my cousins coz itz xirui and andy rom....
V-tea room is really so nice....

wanted to watch 'cars'... hope to catch it on mon!

tml is my birthday... happy 21th birthday...

dayan is on leave now... envy the pig... he slept too much.. tatz y he must chat with me now...
good day to us!

2006-06-06T22:19:00.000+08:00

My long-awaited chalet is over.... =(
Love the prezzie and card I got from my frenz...

knockin off at 12 midnight... cinderalla for tonight... sian....

Dayan is on night... =(

2006-05-31T21:44:00.000+08:00

wahh.... there are 50 over patients in obs room waiting for bed... wth... Am feeling very very sleepy.... how to tahan... but this is my 3rd night alrdy... after tml night, it will b fun coz got chalet!!

i am super piss with those bitches who try to find fault with me... bitch, mess up all my case notes even when I asked her to put it back nicely... all this ppl really cant give them face... argh.. irritating...

Am worried bout the case notes now.... i dun think tat pig ltr will do her work fast lor... then am the one gg to suffer... this place here is invest with lazy pigs and fu*king bitches... and the other pig here is talkig on her HANDPHONE WHILE working.... how hopeless... but I am going to survive here...

haizz.... and that stupid Dayan duno go where =( another pig...

2006-05-26T10:08:00.000+08:00

suddenly.... I feel that i did too many wrong things recently.
Something that will stop me from going towards what I want... Maybe I sld really behave...
Esp with my character... Itz not healthy...

Dr Liew Li Lian is just so so so DAMN COOL.. I am attracted to her, really really attracted!

Dr Henry came back for course today, saw him outside BO.. He's cute..

grr.....

2006-05-25T18:40:00.000+08:00

work flow will be changing AGAIN on mon... itz forever changin..

itz a kinda cold day... and boring as usual coz am werkin.....

really loooooooooook forward to next fri... chalet.... n i can relax and will celebrate my birthday as well... heh heh... 21th... yeahh...

might b doin night again next mon onwards... just nice can off on fri, sat n sun!!! i think i bug marco too much... he cant stand me..

my poor dayan.... ... 6 calls today.... =(

2006-05-20T04:00:00.000+08:00

alright, my 3rd night! one more to go and i'll be free for 3 days... Haiz... but dental appointment really spoil my day off...

Saro is doing the case notes for me... So nice.... For the past 2 days... I really feel like burning all the case notes.....

Haiz.... teeth really givin me a hell lotsa problems... 7K... Where to get 7K.. and surgery is scary lor...

had dinner with dayan before work and I think he is really deprive of sleep. hez on night ltr too.. haha..

2006-05-19T06:18:00.000+08:00

okay, Ill knock off in an hour time!!!

I hope tonight will be a good one!!! I hate EDC.......

And the uncle is really making me go nuts...

Haha... My crazy power ranger cycled all the way from northPoint to Sentosa... and then back again... I think hez really crazy... but the good thing is he stopped by to buy me food.. Haha.. such a sweetie...

2006-05-18T21:52:00.000+08:00

hur.... 2nd night only... workin with van, asmah and the auntie letch...

siann.... hope everyone sleeps peacefully at home!!!!

dayan goin night cycling... so i am going to be very bored...

2006-05-14T19:09:00.000+08:00

She's a slut.

2006-05-12T17:42:00.000+08:00

Hahaha..... Dayan is here to convey patients!! Lol.... Poor boy...

Chong's last day today.... He is few of the nicer ppl... Haiz... I will miss him... They went for steamboat ytd, but too bad vanny and me were on PM... so we can only join them after 9 and by the time we reached, they finished dinner... Went for some drinks instead....

Acc the always hungry dayan for more food ytd night at arab street... my 1st time there, quite interesting to me... and we did the most sickening thing lor... one idiot parked his car sososo near to dayan's, then the freakin lamp post right behind his car... then... we got stucked... we had to asked one by one all the ppl at arab street 'hi, are u driving a xxxxxxx ?' ... That's so dumb...

mos is so tempting tonight... but i am not prepared to go...

today is consider a peaceful day... I hope this will last till at least 9!

2006-05-08T04:40:00.000+08:00

This is FINALLY my last night.... This round of nights are really shitty... Worked non-stop for the past few nights and just completed all my job...

People are getting more n more irritating. Just a book and they can make such a big fuss... Are they too shallow minded or am I too open? 'never judge a book by it's cover' , I'll remember their words. Forgive and forget...

At times ppl who wants to help you can actually give u MORE troubles... Am I suppose to say 'thank you' or to ask them stop helping me...I did ask them to stop helping me, but I feel that he seems to be enjoying giving those bitches problems and coz of that, he turn a deaf ear to me... Arghh.... I 'stirred' up troubles...Itz just so annoying...

Endure..... I am doing that for 9 mths... Endure.... Endure and learn how to stand strong alone, learn how to turn a deaf ear to gossips bout me, learn to tell myself that I should just ignore whatever they are talking behind my back. Yes... endure... They are just passer-bys of my life, it doesnt matter how they talk or look at me... Endure...

Health screening ltr... haiz...

Dayan acc me for break ytd. Bought Mac for me and talk cock for 45 minutes...

2006-05-05T06:01:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHH.............. I wonder who is the BIG JINXO!! My night just SUCKS!

and there is this stupid fat woman who bug me for sosososososo long and asked stupid questions like 'does B1 have toothpaste'... I really feel like fu*kin her up!

Haizz.........

Dayan and me went to the new Cathy for MI3 on our off day on wed! Our first time there... and he stupidly force me to ask the staffs there funny questions... Anyway, I tot I saw Jer... He turned the moment he saw me... I was wondering if I saw the right person, but he cfm my doubt when he called and asked if I am workin at night. That must be him!

Finally collected my stuffs today... They called me early morning... Grrr.... Dayan came meet me at AMK control after his swimmin and acc me... so nice..

I miss Dr Henry that long necked botak...

I want to go HOME!

Patients making me mad..

2006-04-30T09:16:00.000+08:00

I am sitting at edx feelin super sleepy... but I am the floater today, and ill be the floater for the next 2 days too, DO then will be on night.

Well well well... It will never be a happy day workin here. I simply XXX all the XXXXXXXXX... I wonder when I can leave this freakin place... How long more to smile at fake XXXXXXX and to laugh at the oh-so-funny 'jokes'...
I HATE THEM I HATE EVERYTHING~~
All the ppl who I can talk to are leavin, nothing can keeps me here now!

2nd May will be the last day of the MOs... I'll miss the 2 of them... Haha.. Esp drHenry, my long necked botak =D ... ... ...
I got the secret weapon , like wad van calls it, anyway!

Cheers =D

2006-04-26T08:06:00.000+08:00

Morning shift morning shift at sreening... Hope it will b a good day ahead...

but yeahh... I heard ambulance coming... arghh...

Ktv was fun last night and I never slept al all...

2006-04-20T07:43:00.000+08:00

haiz... 1 hr 15 mins more to go before 9am whish is before I knock off... and I gotta come back for course at 1445.. I duno how they plan... Itz just so stupid..

I am blogging in edtc now.. I really hate to go back to obs room.. itz sooo freaking busy my last 2 nights... never ever my night been sooooo busy... sucks man! arghh...

I really hate the bastard... arghhh..

just kill me someone. . .

I saw new things for me to do.. better go down before they page for me.. they are just plain stupid coz i doubt they will look at the note on the table..

good luck.

2006-04-18T03:55:00.000+08:00

Dr henry took my sit.... grr... why are they sitting there!!

2nd night only...

alpha 31 is here and I gotta go out again.. wth...

2006-04-15T07:47:00.000+08:00

early in the morning gotta wear N95! how bad...

Today is EeLyn's 21th birthday!!!
HaPpY BirthdaY to her!

2006-04-09T15:14:00.000+08:00

Today is Brandon and Jason's birthday. How times flies!! At exactly 1 yr back, Val , the guys and me were at the prom night.
Brandon had his 1st birthday celebration ytd, I had mine at the same place 20 yrs back, which is at my auntie's hse. HAHA..

feel so bloody lazy to work actually..

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,

I still feel your touch in my dreams. (my dreams)

Forgive me my weakness,

but I don't know why.

Without you it's hard to survive.

'Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling,

and every time we kiss,

I swear I can fly

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last,

need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch,

I feel the static,

and everytime we kiss

,I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so?

I can't let you go,

want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,

your heart is my sky.

They wipe away tears that I cry. (I cry)

The good and the bad times,

we've been through them all.

You make me rise when I fall.

'Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling,

and everytime we kiss,

I swear I can fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last,

need you by my side.

'Cause everytime we touch,

I feel the static,

and everytime we kiss,

I reach for the sky.

Can't you hear my heart beat so?

I can't let you go,

want you in my life.

'Cause everytime we touch,

I get this feeling,

and everytime we kiss,

I swear I can fly.

Can't you feel my heart beat fast?

I want this to last,

need you by my side.

-Everytime We Touch-

Cascada

2006-04-07T19:17:00.000+08:00

haiz.... Made mistake just now... How can the nursing home make such a mistake.... they mixed up the i/c number of the son and the father!!! and I get the stupid case!!! making everyone change this and that, called up the lab to informed bout the blood results, getting dr chong to change evertthing, getting sister to do so many things!!!! lucky ethel nv scold me!!!

really bad luck!!!

my fav doc are resigning and mopex are going away alrdy... =...(

2006-04-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

here I am at ED again... Am a floater today and damn lucky that that who is not down. Itz so unsafe to be in the same shift as that who, but then again, I better slap my mouth..

Itz a quiet sunday morning (I cross my fingers). May it last all the way. At least till 1600 hours!

Haiz... I hope they will teach me something new since that one is transferring. That person doing medical reports is not giving up his sit anytime soon and I will only go in when he is on leave. Why let me learn when itz not going to be use often, or maybe 14 days a yr.. something wrong with their brains.

Anyway, Susan... Hope you get well soon, then we can go out again.

2006-03-28T03:17:00.000+08:00

last night finally! inside observation room and sister su take my place.. haizz...

so bad luck, got an ortho fast track which is an industrial accident and there is this fuck*r in front of me making things difficult. wth...

haiz... things to do in obs room not done yet and I really wonder why sister su likes to sit there ...

All the best ..

2006-03-27T04:00:00.000+08:00

the bastard came today as well..

3rd night, not a good one! grrr.... I thought sunday night will be better but I am wrong wrong WRONG!!! aiyo, and the printer gave me problem!!! I almost eat the whole printer up!

another patient is coming.... =...(

This night is so boring, nothing interesting like the previous one I had. All thanks to those psy patients who brighten up my night!

2006-03-26T05:18:00.000+08:00

2nd night... not much happening stuffs, just a lot of patients... sian..

The bastard is on night duty too, but I think he will try his best to convey allll cases to cgh unless he is left with no options.... I hope he will have no options!! 1.5 more hours to goo.... alpha 212 come come to hotel 4!!!

Oh yar, he is as fake as ever.

the lazy pig opp me is doing death cert, she is going to take forever to do it and push everything to me... I still dun understand why are there so many pigs ard me and I wonder if the cleaner wanna come inside and clean or not the place... he has been walkin in front of me for quite some time. grr...

my hands will get cuts for sure whenever am on night duty, poor hands of mine.

2006-03-25T03:18:00.000+08:00

1st night.... damn sleepy ...

the stupid pig behind me is not doing her job! so I gotta finish everything by myself.. I expected it anyway.. haiz... she is surfing the web and playing games while I do all the work by myself.... I am working with 2 pigs. one is sleeping soundly now while I take over her, the other pig will be sleeping ltr and I will hav to take over her as well! PIGS are all ard me....

What to doo...

Itz kinda a peaceful night tho (I cross my fingers)... ambulances is here....

2006-03-17T08:03:00.000+08:00

On morning duty at edc today. Good day ahead! But I already saw a lot of potential ones =( May all patients come only after 1430 =)
Today is friday... and it is my uncle's birthday. I love my uncle =)

June got into silkair.. How nice, she will have lotsa $$$!!

Paramedics having attachment in the hospital... haha.. Sharen asked for the number.. How not nice =X ..

Disappear for a long longg time ...

This should be the way it goes, no one can decide on who is the one being ... yeah, that is the way.

2006-03-10T04:17:00.000+08:00

This is my third night! And NO, itz not peaceful at all!!

First, from a relative of a patient who passed away... Their own miscommunication problem lar!!! Made me wrote 2 memos for sister...

Then a PSY patient scare the hell out of me... He claims that someone wanted to poison him... He wanted to removed his clothes to show me duno-wad... But all he ate was a moulded bread... Freaking funny...

Then there's a girl who drank hard liquor and got hyperventilation and waited so long for her to settle down...

Shouldnt have changed my assignment with Saro!!!

2006-03-06T16:32:00.000+08:00

Blogger told me I couldnt blog just now. madness coz here I am.

My beds are all gone when i reach home ytd, I was like..... huh..@#$%^*(&...

But even my cupboard, my mom wanna change. I spoilt it the other time due to insanity. The doors dropping any moment. She is amaze by me and offer to wake me up by a few tight slaps.

She offered me a few tight slaps again when I heard ppl talking. I
heard ppl talking to me, so I answered. She asked me who was I talking to, but no.. No one's been talking to me.. she didnt talk to me.. who's talking ?

Does doctors treat the brain or the mind? Or at the expenses of one of it?

Marc is leaving tml and he doesnt want to see me today.
I guess he will nv want to see me again.
Haiz..

2006-02-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

1 cm makes a lot of difference. But it's okay!

That bastard is really fuck up. He should just go and die.

I can't wait to get over this. get over this fuck up bastard.

I shall laugh at his oh-so-holy attitude, I shall agrees with all the ppl out there that he is cocky, he is lazy, he thought he knows everything, I shall join them in mocking at him. I shall just believe that he is infamous, he is faking everywhere he goes, he puts on the mr-nice-guy mask, he sucks, he is being rank one of the top few sucky guys in scdf, he puts amen at the end of every lie he said and after he sin and then hope that ppl forgives him. He is hopeless. A hopeless bastard who thought that the world revolves only around him, who feels so insecure that he needs attention to make him feel useful and needed. He is simply hopeless.

Don't ever want to see him again. I shall go away, for my own good.

Oh... let me have the never-look-back attitude! Amen.

2006-02-18T09:06:00.000+08:00

I am sitting at backroom with nothing much to do.. The workload during weekday seems more sia, but anyway, I only come in here on Thursday, Friday and Saturday.

Am being force to go on leave for 4 days next week. Aiya, like that means that when I really gotta go on leave, I'll have problem. A bit sick what they are doing.

Feel like looking for another job. You may say that I wanted to run away from some people, but that is the truth. Haha... Another way of putting it is running away from reality. Coz reality sucks, so I must avoid.

Lies are lies. No matter how the words are being twists or whatever, they are just a pack of lies.

The feelings are weird, I can't put them in words. Only my heart knows how it feels like.

I guess that is part of growing up, an experience that one will get along the way... I do really learn from it. It teaches me a harsh lesson, and maybe that is what I really need.

I am still confuse at how he lied with eyes open and telling me that he never tells lie.. The way he looks when he is lying, I'll never forget. He stares hard like he is an innocent boy hoping for someone to understand and believe him. He is a package of lies and shit. Oh God... Is this the way you teach your 'belove son'? I really doubt if he learns anything from you. Open the eyes of the gf tho.

After all the craps I tok, I'll still end up in the car listening to amazing lies. Wooo...
That's really madness.

The bottom line is that I had never met anyone worse that him. I hope he would be the last one coz I dun wanna meet ANYBODY ELSE!

THEREFORE, MAY ALL OF YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE FOR THE TIME BEING AND STOP PESTERING ME!

2006-02-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

I feel like shit these days...

The most messed up v-day I ever had... And the aftermath is worse... People forcing me to say things i don't want, doing all sorts of things to make me cry, breaking my heart like it nothing.

I wonder what is happening... I feel so tired and numb. Adrian's making me numb. Yes, I feel numb all of a sudden. It's like history repeating itself and yet this is worse.

Everybody told me he is a bastard, I know that perfectly well. But tell me how am I suppose to accept all this out of the blue... I cant bring myself to leave him... I need time...

I feel the way he is tryin to deny, the way he is tryin to play with my feelings, the way he is tryin to shake off certain things... I allowed all that to happen... Itz my fault.. I am stupid...

I hate it... I dun like it.. I feel like a fool..

Everybody just leave me alone! Fuck off and back off..
LEAVE ME ALONE YOU JERKS!

Yes, I am as mess up as this entry is... this is madness... I hate them...

Adrian, the jerk, had never been in my life. Nothing ever happened between us.
The rest just get out of my life as well.

Just leave me alone.
Go away.

Time to wake up.

2006-02-11T00:35:00.000+08:00

Isn't it great... When someone appears in your monotone life... He makes you smile from the bottom of your heart, you look forward to see him everyday after work, and even the most irritating person seems like the best person on earth suddenly..

He's too pretty not to be notice, too pretty to be ignore..

He seems like the perfect one... For that moment... Before the truth is being throw right in front of you. It hurts like hell. It hurts like before with a bit of numbness...

I don't want to go through that heartaching period ever again... I don't want to read all those heartbreaking words in front of me ever again... But I have no idea how to stop all that now.. I feel so lost again.. It's worse than before...

He never lie, he only twists his words all the time.. That is more than enough..

I don't want to be a extra burden to him at this point of time when everything is not going well for him, but itz making me crazy.. I am lost...

It hurts me deep.

bored

2005-11-30T08:33:00.000+08:00

Waiting for SCDF reply... I hope they will take me in... I don't know how long more I can take it here. One word for the place I am working in now... SPEECHLESS....

It's fill with weird people, selfish people, idiotic people, etc.... All except good people. I ain't asking for the perfect colluage to work with... It's just that.... ARGH........ speechless....

I hate walking into the changing room everyday...
I hate smiling at people.
I hate it....

Please help me.......

Sunday

2005-08-21T19:49:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I could stay at home on Sunday. Long time since I got to off on weekends!

The bad news is...
My Mom's off today as well.
It's not easy not to fight with her at times.
Sometimes, certain things are hard to explain. The certain things in me. Even I, myself can't explain.
I hope to be able to get out of this place, if only I can.
It's getting more annoying and I am reacting in a indifferent way.
I am so use to it.
Haiz...
No one will ever understand.
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Junyang is out of the project superstar. =(

2005-07-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

For no particular reason, I getting real annoyed today.

Members looked more disgusting than usual.

Can the terriosts blast the 3 stupid telephones instead of killing innocent beings please?

********

Ooops...
The bench where they sat.
They breeze that blews at them.
The stinky river didn't matter.
Then uncle who woke them up.
The time froze.

********

Ah haa.... I prefer morning shift to afternoon shift! More chances of meeting up with my friends! =D

But....

No matter what shift it is....

It sucks!
Can a handsome rich boy in the club marry me?

Ah haha...

Yeah man, it's something really interesting to dream about tonight! Cheers!
********

By the way....
I had fallen so deeply in love....... ... ....

*** LIN FENG ***

Lin Feng is real cool! Awwww....

Let's hope my Mom will bring home more of his vcds!

I shall drool all the way like I did while watching him in the last hong kong series!

Awww....

Gotta dream what I mentioned earlier =)
Nitez All!

2005-07-18T01:22:00.000+08:00

I hope that Sok Eng enjoyed herself today... Not much people, kinda different from the usual 21th bithday parties that I went. I don't really know how to express how I felt, but I hope she will always be happy.

VaL looks cooL while driving around in her van. It gives me the motivation to apply for basic theory! I gave up on basic theory after a 1-time failure tho. Haha..

I hate exams.
It's bugging me and I am not in the correct mood for it.
I am always not in the mood for exams tho! Hahaha...
It sucks.
System Security sucks.
Argh.. =(

I dreamt of someone last night!
The feelings are amazing when he is next to me.
Even in my dreams!
Awww.... I hope my sister did not wake me up...

I hope he is happy.

2005-07-14T00:58:00.000+08:00

I thought of a friend of mine again. I believe most Gessians would have thought of him after watching the teevee program on channel U earlier too.

I hate that day... The day he passed away.

This is the 2nd week since he left us. I wonder how he is and where he is at times.
I miss his joked and the way he speaked.

The laughters in class and our long singing sessions after exams...

Thank you so much for being part of my memories. I will always remember you, my friend.
Take care Ivan, and we shall meet again.

2005-06-27T00:39:00.000+08:00

Something is really wrong with my laptop. It's getting on my nerves! Irritating...

Gets a trojan attack I think...

Haiz Poor Lappy...

Morning shift tomorrow...

Good Night =D

=D

2005-06-12T09:18:00.000+08:00

The time now is 928 am... I just finish bathing... Hair's wet, so I shall yak a bit here and there.

I had a wonderfuL 20th birthday. The happinest birthday I ever had =)
All thanks to Xin and DarL, not forgetting Lyn and peeps and of course CSC's friends.

11 June 2004
Headed down to my auntie's place because of my cousin's wedding stuff. I finally saw my belove Brandon! He has grown a lot... I miss him so much! Ate a bit and had my favourite egg-shell agar agar by third uncle.

Met up with Lyn for Sushi Tei at Paragon... Didn't really eat much. I was kinda full, but the salmon really taste great. I am really touch for what she had done for me. If you ever see this, I just want to tell you that I really appretiate everything, the time, efforts and thoughts! Thank you sososo much!

After the dinner, we waited for Amanda and Yin... Was planning to go to chinaBlack, but they came up with this stupid, and I repeat STUPID rule that only heels and covered shoe are allowed in. How stupid can their rules get..

We went down to Devils instead as Cat was there.
And my series of unfortunate events began...

It scared the hell out of me. We were chatting at the balcony when 2 gangs of people suddenly fought... We wanted to move, but all was too late. Everything seems to happen in spilt seconds, tables, chairs, glasses and even hot light bulbs were being thrown around. The 4 of us got caught in between as people were all pushing... Me, being the unlucky one, got hit twice on my head... That FAT fellow hit me with something hard. Can't he even look at who he was hitting before he tried to smash my head with all his might! Idiot! He hit so hard I screamed and cried without even realising it... Yin hugged me right away and protected me throughout... Thank you so much! The guys were USELESS! NOT A SINGLE GUY HELPED! It was a girl who went all the way out to pull Yin and me into a safer area. We don't even know her... I am very angry! 2 buns on my head and a injured neck. I wonder if those who fight did get injure at all. Idiots.

My feet got cut 2 hours later and started to bleed. I didn't know that it was bleeding till I saw the blood stains.

What a night. I WAS INJURED FROM HEAD TO TOE. SUCKS!

I was really annoyed! And the 2 stupid stalkers appeared. They followed us everywhere we went. We left the dancefloor to avoid them, minutes later, there they are sitting at the table near us. We wanted to go, they followed. We wanted to cross the traffic lights, they sat at one of the bench, so we thought they were not stalking us afterall. The worst thing was when we were sitting down at Lido's mac, they appeared... I was in the toilet and there they were waiting at the entrance of Lido's... Amanda's smart to inform Lym and me so that we could take a different route. Insane.

It really spoils my mood, nevertheless, I still had a great time with Lyn, Manda, Yin and cat! =)

2005-06-08T00:14:00.000+08:00

Just when I needed you most.

I deeply felt the meaning of this phrase today.
I was lost.
Can't get most of the details right.
My mind went blank.
Heart was jumping!
I pick up the phone wanting to ask for help...

and....

AngeL appeared!!

pheww...

bdae celebration

2005-06-03T00:28:00.000+08:00

2nd June

Woo~~ Rice TabLe is excellent! The food is really great!

Thank you so much to Xin and DArL! I simply love everything you all bought for me! I love you both! ( I mean it okay!)

Thanks to all for the day. Tho it's a really warm day. Lol..

'Thanks' to the SS lecturer who spoiled my day too.

=)

2005-05-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

Gigi's on teevee now. She's singing the song I fell head over heels with when I was in Sec 1... I depended on it during my 1st trip out of Singapore! The long way to Malacca...

26 May 2004

2005-05-26T12:57:00.000+08:00

I skipped IHP a year back to attend my cousin's ROM. I was already on bus 74, on my way to school actually. I am naughty, I alighted and took bus 75 instead.

I roamed around town waiting for Ming after lunch that day... Being superly idiotic, he was late as usual. Managed to control my temper and waited so patiently for him while shopping with my cousins.

He reached and the both of us sat at the Starbucks next to Somerset MRT while smoking and crapping. We were waiting for his friend, someone I 'didn't' know.

For 4 hours, we sat at the same place. He appeared out of no where. Wearing spects and looking a bit dumb seriously. He wore a t-shirt from his shop, a pair of nike sneaker with holes (he complained) and speaks really good english. I thought he's really cute.

He made me speechless. He told me he can't turn back.

Did I always mention that time heals all wounds?

It took me quite a while to deeply explore the above 'saying'.

It can't be totally wrongly isn't it?

I thought I was going to die then. The stupid me never came across any heartache comparable to that yet

Exactly a year I got to know him.

My Pretty boy.

I miss him. A bit here and there.

I miss him. Certain times of the day.

I miss him. The landscape that once drew you and me.

I miss him. His heartbeat melody.

I miss him. Sweet kissses.

I miss him. The way he made me feel.

Yes, I miss you Gerald.

2005-05-22T00:57:00.000+08:00

My off day tomorrow. =)

Chinese Swimming Club... Yup, if you still have no idea when I am working at, I am working at that swimming club filled with members that are mostly over 80 years old. Will be able to bump into a handsome and fit guy once in a blue moon tho. Haha...

Mix kinda well with my group of 8 colleagues. Quite happy working there! =)

i am speechless, ure hopeless

2005-05-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

I feel like crying.
Someone got me feeling disappointed again.
Stuffs always ended up unsettled. Everything said before hand went back to zero.

It's as if nothing has ever being mention.
Everytime the topic will be brought up again only after it's over.
My fault it will be.
You said for fun, but everything you said, I took them seriously.

Do you know what it feels like?
Dumb.

2005-05-17T00:52:00.000+08:00

to meet

and

to know each other

is not easy.

It's bed time again. I am tired.
Am responsing really well to PMS-ness these days.

I have found a job at Chinese Swimming Club. I am lucky that they actually employ me despite my school work.

It's true that we don't know

what we've got

until we lose it.

But it's also true that, we don't know

what we've been missing

until it arrives.

Gy makes people feel better. =) A lot I mean. Thanks.

I look forward to.
I love to.
Just remain.
I understand.

2005-05-11T23:09:00.000+08:00

想为你做件事让你更快乐的事

2005-05-10T02:36:00.000+08:00

I was digging one of my cupboards inside out 30 minutes ago. It was just a short 30 minutes and memories of more than 3 years came flooding my mind.

How sweet.

I kept all (or at least most) the presents my friends gave to me in that cupboard. It's mostly stuffs I got from them when they actually organized for me a birthday party. It's the 1st time somebody organized a celebration for me, My 15th birthday =) That day was the 1st day I attended service in Crystal too... Headed down to PS, had lunch in LJS and watched a movie on dino. How I miss them... =>

As I was looking thru, I found a photo frame wrap in pink wrappers tie with a purple ribbon. It was given to me by AngeL. In it was a picture that I had been seraching for and gave up after a few hours of seraching and there it is, lying nicely in the photo frame! It was taken back in year 2000 on AngeL's celebration at ECP. AngeL, Lyn and me were standing on some rock smiling our innocent smiles... Where have those days gone?

The TarePanda's cups are still being wrap too. Lyn's handwritings on the wrapper was still as vivid as ever. No trance of fading away. Just like our friendship.

The sweetest thing of all is the TarePanda bear that lies in a box fill up with dried flowers. The scent of the dried flowers actually remains! I used to joke about how that Panda actually sleeps in that box which I said was the coffin. Haha.. Bad me... The truth is that I was really touch by what he did. A card was attached to the box and efforts were put in. Encouraging words were written all over (as usual). I miss the chcolates under my desk everyday. I hope he is doing well.

There is this decrocative thing that JieYi gave to me in Primary 6. The biggest and most expensive present she bought (she said so =P) Garfield is standing next to the row of wordings. I used to go gaga over Garfield in primany school. It's something she got from Malaysia and as a child, I was so happy I couldn't sleep that day. I remember that it's a trip organized by PHS for all P6 students. I wanted so much to go and my Mom didn't allow. I cried and refused to go for my tuition, I merely sat next to the telephone throwing temper. My tutor called and well... I listened to her in the end and went for the tuition. She said that she promise to make me laugh if I go over! Sure enough, she did =D JieYi is my special friend who fought with me in kindergarden 2 (she can't rem) and my best tutor...

Tabernacle's weekly newsletter was found too! It was dated 23 Dec 2001... Bee Tin's smile, Sandra's words and her care for me never once left my mind I realise. Did I make a mistake?

Loads and loads of memories unfolded as I took out each and every stuffs... It's all pieces of me and I know all this belongs to me solely and will be always kept with me.

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I can't stand my Mom anymore. I don't know what she wants and I doubt I will ever know. I had enough of everything. Her nonsense are never-ending and I choose to be nonchalance this time. To her behaviors and everybody's. How will they ever understand how I feels. Since the day they divorce, the things that they/she said or do... Makes me want to hate her/them more. They will never understand how much I hate listening to what they had to say bout him, my dad. They will never understand how much I hate moving away from my old unit, the way I convince myself that he is indeed a terrible dad, the way I hold back my tears... It's all getting too much. Or is it that I am getting too insensible as I got older? Too eager in searching for ways to prove that I am so strong and independent. Am I?
I am tired of all this, it's call family problems I reckon? Or has it transformed into some kinds of personal issues? Too paranoid about everything she said on the phone, scare of going into the bathroom or staying in bed while she is in the living room talking. It makes me feel like a problem kid. Shouldn't I have pass that stage?

I hope one of them will understand. Just one of them and I will feel better.

a fun nightout

2005-05-08T19:18:00.000+08:00

Had a fun night out with Xin, Wj and Lw! After our steamboat session at marina bay, we met up with Lw and planned our hotel trip! Lol...

We settled down in a hotel near bugis in the end. The uncle there is a nice person =) He gave us a good price! The 4 of us crap n played cards the whole night, but poor xin is not feeling well.. =(

Headed down to amk kbox with Wj and Lw before we finally went home! Sang from 11+ to 4++.. Fun tho the ktv is super freaking coLd...

I miss little Brandon .. =(

2005-05-06T00:49:00.000+08:00

Shall first touch on the happinest thing for the day! Hmmm.... I am super happy for Susan aka Miss Pana girL! All the best to u and M1 (forget your dar's name) okay! So gLad that I got to know you =)

I got a really bad day by the way. In every aspect I mean... Haizz... Disappointed...

Urghing for a coLd beer.

I miss..........

2005-05-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

It's the month of May. Time flies.

One year back...

G appeared out of no where one evening.

The girl who went head over heels at the sight of PiG and rabbit was gone.

He was mine one day.

His depart was expected tho.

However, I am glad to be once hugged by him.

Today...

I miss him still.

But I am happier than then.

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I heard the opera goes 'dok dok chang' on teevee.

The 1st thing that come onto my mind everytime.

My auntie.

The good old days are back.

Her pair of hands that used to hold me and tie my hair.

The same pair of hand that helped me with wearing my school shoes and carrying my heavy school bag.

The days she walked me to my school and shelther me on rainy days.

Where have those times gone?

2005-05-02T02:55:00.000+08:00

Kinda enjoyed my day =D Tho Xin and I got to work in the afternoon and the responses weren't that good.

We headed back to my place for mahjong with Ying Shan and LW. I lost a lot and YS is the Big winner! Lol~

I wanna learn from Xin lotsa things man! I can't practice what I pearch. =/

2005-04-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

I was strolling home when the urgh of drinking 'teh' hits me. I was hungry anyway, so I bought for myself some food as I got my 'teh'. I was sipping it as I was walking home frowning at the hot weather. I am reminded of something.

When I was younger, one of the happinest moments for me would be my uncle calling back home to ask if we wanted to have supper (which usually means prawn mee/satay) If he calls back home before 10pm, he would asked if we wanted to drink 'teh' or coffee. Be it just a simple pack of 'teh', my eyes would be lighten up instandly and I will wait eagerly for him to be back! My cousins and I will rushed to the kitchen preparing cups and chats happily!

I would drank it so so so slowly, not that it is hot, just that I can't bear to finish the last drop =)
Don't laugh at my sillyness and my innocent days. It's just a part of my happiness when I was young.

A pack of 'teh' could make my day and left me grins like a cat in the past. Is it that our expectations grow as we grow? Or are we losting the grip on how to be contented? It seems to me that this days, lots of people are almost never seems contented with their lives. Happiness becomes a thing too hard for them. It is the smaller things that contributes to happiness. I believe that it is all around us if we understand the meaning of being contented.

Hopes n Fears

2005-04-26T02:45:00.000+08:00

25 ApriL 2005

I saw Alvin today. (^(oo)^) Was reminded of Dr PiG, stew rabbit, doodles drew by him to me =D, looonng MSN chats, IS projects, tennis, ice-skating, rollarblading, elves names, all stuffs we talked about... It was a pleasent surprise. =) (-(oo)-) Hmmm... don't really know what is the right way to express how I feel when I saw him, one thing for sure... I am very very HAPPY! =D~~~

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.

School's starting soon tho I have no idea when. If I told you that I am not at all bothered by it, I lied. Putting up a brave front is a norm for me. A norm that will eventually led to some true stuffs tho, congrats me on that =) I am scare. Scare of hearing questions like 'eh, why are you here?', ' I thought you grad?'... They are just asking the obvious. Are they expecting an answer like 'oh, I love NP too much, so I just wanna visit it more often cause I am too free.' or stuffs like 'I miss gerry cheong and hope to see him again.' ...
I shall wear a tag indicating that I repeat.
I am scare. I am scare of bumping into ML and her friends when I am alone. It spoils her day no doubt, but it will definetly spoil mine. Half a day the most.
I am scare. I am scare of pair/group work. Who shall I pair up with? Whose group shall I join?
Haizz...

I have enrolled in a course at a private school, something which I really like and keen on. I hope I can do well. In fact, it's more of like I MUST do well. The fees are expensive. This is the route I wanted and choose, it determines and shape my future in a way. I will not let my Mom down. =)

I hope to say good bye to those rotten times in Np, but the fact is that I can't. Maybe I shall be glad that the time I spend in school will be lesser.

Always look on the bright side of life =) I will have a way out.

Hate being sick

2005-04-24T18:16:00.000+08:00

Fallen sick again. Headache and stuffs... Arghh... Pain all over my body. =( Slept so much yesterday! Haha...

Stayed home for the whole day with the company of my bed and VCDs. I am bored and hungry... Haizz..

2005-04-22T01:22:00.000+08:00

Lotsa food... A lot of food today!!!!

The truth is that NP loves me too much to let me go. In another words, I repeat =) Yeah... It sucks big time.

Went out with Xin today and I got for myself another turtle!

Got a new job as a surveyor... Haha which means that I will be working with Xin!! Money Money...

Headed down to somewhere near habourfront for lotsa food after the briefing with Xin, YingShan and HuiWen!!! Gosh... They ordered sososo much food! 1st time I tasted some of theose food as well! Woo~~ FuN!!!

haizz

2005-04-21T01:59:00.000+08:00

Results will be release in 7 hours time. Good luck to everyone and to me =)

If I graduate successfully.... =D laughs... I shall...
Take the 1st step towards my goaL of course. Had enough rest actually, so next week onwards, I'll be seeking for ways towards my goals! Hahahah... In my mind, it's all well-plan! BeautifuL thoughts of how I should go about it. Am determine to fill my new chapter with exciting stuffs! Awww...
I will treat myself some yummy food.

If NP loves me too much to let me go... I shall...
Continue being a sardine by squeezing on to bus 74 every morning.
Meeting Ming to go to town for movie after school.
I will still treat myself to food. Not interested in thinking too much about it. Am prepared for this anyway.

Little Brandon is such a sweetie. Am not kidding. haha

Happppyyy day!

2005-04-18T23:02:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed my day! Happy =)

But someone kind of spoil my day when he called and lectured me on something I had set my mind on. It's alright cause I understand that he cares, but I dislike the way he 'joked' about it. oh well... His CME teacher is a failure. =X

I know what I want =)

2005-04-18T01:47:00.000+08:00

I can't go JB with my friends ... =(

I am happy today. But not tomorrow. I have been happy for a week. I hope after tomorrow, I will be happy again. I know what I am doing, but then again, maybe not.

It's my independent nature and I had long figured out a way to pick me up.
For I am digging my own grave step by step.
I don't need one to understand, just be there =)
It's just another phrase. I am just too bored I guess.
Boredom is always the main culprit.

It's nothing really, just stop elaborating on any thinkings and will win half the battle within. The winning formula.

I want to be more independent than I am now. I want to walk with my head lifted up higher than now. I want to go for my dreams and be free from everything that is holding me back.
If I can bid NP goodbye, no similar current situations will I allow myself to be dwell in. It's a BIG 'NO' =) NP is wasting my time.

What if I really gotta repeat? Oh nooo....

Boring sun

2005-04-17T23:15:00.000+08:00

Boring Sunday, April 17, 2005… At least I can sleep till 2 in the afternoon! Lol… I shall not complain since lots of people are currently envy of my life. I have NOTHING to do everyday. I need to find something to do because boredom is killing mee… Arghh… I am consider jobless as well… M1 has no more deployment for Samsung promoters in TBC, so now I am only left with SingteL and Starhub outlets to go… In other words, I am more broke than ever. Half thanks to the porm night. =(

I am a 100% TV freak today for I sat in front of the box since 430 till 1100… I had nothing to do and I am BORED! I caught ‘zhen qing’ for the 3rd time in the afternoon. Anyway, Kate and Leopold was a nice movie. Caught it at Marina Sq. some years back with Wen, Eugene and yew onn… Haha… I watched to refresh my memories. Switched to Channel u for that movie by Vanness Wu after ‘Kate and Leopold’. That show contains too much violence and it was kind of boring if you ask me. Vanness is cool as usual. Am watching ‘100 tales of horror’ on channel 8 right now as I am writing this entry. haha

I guess I ate too much ice-cream in the afternoon… Feeling kinda sick now… Suffering from breathing difficulties recently. Argh…

I have an urge to eat the ‘yong dou fu’ that my uncle used to buy for me in Chinatown. =) Feels like having some sushi as well.

Jer msg me, I thought I saw Ger..