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Friday, February 17, 2006 I feel like shit these days...The most messed up v-day I ever had... And the aftermath is worse... People forcing me to say things i don't want, doing all sorts of things to make me cry, breaking my heart like it nothing. I wonder what is happening... I feel so tired and numb. Adrian's making me numb. Yes, I feel numb all of a sudden. It's like history repeating itself and yet this is worse. Everybody told me he is a bastard, I know that perfectly well. But tell me how am I suppose to accept all this out of the blue... I cant bring myself to leave him... I need time... I feel the way he is tryin to deny, the way he is tryin to play with my feelings, the way he is tryin to shake off certain things... I allowed all that to happen... Itz my fault.. I am stupid... I hate it... I dun like it.. I feel like a fool.. Everybody just leave me alone! Fuck off and back off.. LEAVE ME ALONE YOU JERKS! Yes, I am as mess up as this entry is... this is madness... I hate them... Adrian, the jerk, had never been in my life. Nothing ever happened between us. The rest just get out of my life as well. Just leave me alone. Go away. Time to wake up. |
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I believe - The past is not for us to dwell on. Move on when it's time, for not anyone, but yourself. Eyes make me blind - Myself Simple girlie, 21 going 22, Gemini likes... Friends, DancingToMyBeat, RetrO, Chcolate, Lavender, FreedOm, Truth, PurpLe, HugoBoss, TheatreArts, VirginSuicides, Reading wishes for... Nothing much. I just want to be happy. hugo boss">hugo boss">hugo boss">Hugo Bosss [Deep Red], student card of NAFA archives February 2005 Other People ---- links my pixies!
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