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Tuesday, May 31, 2005 Gigi's on teevee now. She's singing the song I fell head over heels with when I was in Sec 1... I depended on it during my 1st trip out of Singapore! The long way to Malacca...Thursday, May 26, 2005 I skipped IHP a year back to attend my cousin's ROM. I was already on bus 74, on my way to school actually. I am naughty, I alighted and took bus 75 instead.I roamed around town waiting for Ming after lunch that day... Being superly idiotic, he was late as usual. Managed to control my temper and waited so patiently for him while shopping with my cousins. He reached and the both of us sat at the Starbucks next to Somerset MRT while smoking and crapping. We were waiting for his friend, someone I 'didn't' know. For 4 hours, we sat at the same place. He appeared out of no where. Wearing spects and looking a bit dumb seriously. He wore a t-shirt from his shop, a pair of nike sneaker with holes (he complained) and speaks really good english. I thought he's really cute. He made me speechless. He told me he can't turn back. Did I always mention that time heals all wounds? It took me quite a while to deeply explore the above 'saying'. It can't be totally wrongly isn't it? I thought I was going to die then. The stupid me never came across any heartache comparable to that yet Exactly a year I got to know him. My Pretty boy. I miss him. A bit here and there. I miss him. Certain times of the day. I miss him. The landscape that once drew you and me. I miss him. His heartbeat melody. I miss him. Sweet kissses. I miss him. The way he made me feel. Yes, I miss you Gerald.
Sunday, May 22, 2005 My off day tomorrow. =)Chinese Swimming Club... Yup, if you still have no idea when I am working at, I am working at that swimming club filled with members that are mostly over 80 years old. Will be able to bump into a handsome and fit guy once in a blue moon tho. Haha... Mix kinda well with my group of 8 colleagues. Quite happy working there! =) Wednesday, May 18, 2005 I feel like crying.Someone got me feeling disappointed again. Stuffs always ended up unsettled. Everything said before hand went back to zero. It's as if nothing has ever being mention. Everytime the topic will be brought up again only after it's over. My fault it will be. You said for fun, but everything you said, I took them seriously. Do you know what it feels like? Dumb. Tuesday, May 17, 2005 to meet and to know each other is not easy. It's bed time again. I am tired. Am responsing really well to PMS-ness these days. I have found a job at Chinese Swimming Club. I am lucky that they actually employ me despite my school work. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it. But it's also true that, we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Gy makes people feel better. =) A lot I mean. Thanks. I look forward to. I love to. Just remain. I understand. Wednesday, May 11, 2005 想为你做件事 让你更快乐的事 Tuesday, May 10, 2005 I was digging one of my cupboards inside out 30 minutes ago. It was just a short 30 minutes and memories of more than 3 years came flooding my mind.How sweet. I kept all (or at least most) the presents my friends gave to me in that cupboard. It's mostly stuffs I got from them when they actually organized for me a birthday party. It's the 1st time somebody organized a celebration for me, My 15th birthday =) That day was the 1st day I attended service in Crystal too... Headed down to PS, had lunch in LJS and watched a movie on dino. How I miss them... => As I was looking thru, I found a photo frame wrap in pink wrappers tie with a purple ribbon. It was given to me by AngeL. In it was a picture that I had been seraching for and gave up after a few hours of seraching and there it is, lying nicely in the photo frame! It was taken back in year 2000 on AngeL's celebration at ECP. AngeL, Lyn and me were standing on some rock smiling our innocent smiles... Where have those days gone? The TarePanda's cups are still being wrap too. Lyn's handwritings on the wrapper was still as vivid as ever. No trance of fading away. Just like our friendship. The sweetest thing of all is the TarePanda bear that lies in a box fill up with dried flowers. The scent of the dried flowers actually remains! I used to joke about how that Panda actually sleeps in that box which I said was the coffin. Haha.. Bad me... The truth is that I was really touch by what he did. A card was attached to the box and efforts were put in. Encouraging words were written all over (as usual). I miss the chcolates under my desk everyday. I hope he is doing well. There is this decrocative thing that JieYi gave to me in Primary 6. The biggest and most expensive present she bought (she said so =P) Garfield is standing next to the row of wordings. I used to go gaga over Garfield in primany school. It's something she got from Malaysia and as a child, I was so happy I couldn't sleep that day. I remember that it's a trip organized by PHS for all P6 students. I wanted so much to go and my Mom didn't allow. I cried and refused to go for my tuition, I merely sat next to the telephone throwing temper. My tutor called and well... I listened to her in the end and went for the tuition. She said that she promise to make me laugh if I go over! Sure enough, she did =D JieYi is my special friend who fought with me in kindergarden 2 (she can't rem) and my best tutor... Tabernacle's weekly newsletter was found too! It was dated 23 Dec 2001... Bee Tin's smile, Sandra's words and her care for me never once left my mind I realise. Did I make a mistake? Loads and loads of memories unfolded as I took out each and every stuffs... It's all pieces of me and I know all this belongs to me solely and will be always kept with me. ----------------------------------------------------------------- I can't stand my Mom anymore. I don't know what she wants and I doubt I will ever know. I had enough of everything. Her nonsense are never-ending and I choose to be nonchalance this time. To her behaviors and everybody's. How will they ever understand how I feels. Since the day they divorce, the things that they/she said or do... Makes me want to hate her/them more. They will never understand how much I hate listening to what they had to say bout him, my dad. They will never understand how much I hate moving away from my old unit, the way I convince myself that he is indeed a terrible dad, the way I hold back my tears... It's all getting too much. Or is it that I am getting too insensible as I got older? Too eager in searching for ways to prove that I am so strong and independent. Am I? I am tired of all this, it's call family problems I reckon? Or has it transformed into some kinds of personal issues? Too paranoid about everything she said on the phone, scare of going into the bathroom or staying in bed while she is in the living room talking. It makes me feel like a problem kid. Shouldn't I have pass that stage? I hope one of them will understand. Just one of them and I will feel better. Sunday, May 08, 2005 Had a fun night out with Xin, Wj and Lw! After our steamboat session at marina bay, we met up with Lw and planned our hotel trip! Lol...We settled down in a hotel near bugis in the end. The uncle there is a nice person =) He gave us a good price! The 4 of us crap n played cards the whole night, but poor xin is not feeling well.. =( Headed down to amk kbox with Wj and Lw before we finally went home! Sang from 11+ to 4++.. Fun tho the ktv is super freaking coLd... I miss little Brandon .. =( Friday, May 06, 2005 Shall first touch on the happinest thing for the day! Hmmm.... I am super happy for Susan aka Miss Pana girL! All the best to u and M1 (forget your dar's name) okay! So gLad that I got to know you =)I got a really bad day by the way. In every aspect I mean... Haizz... Disappointed... Urghing for a coLd beer. Wednesday, May 04, 2005 It's the month of May. Time flies. One year back... G appeared out of no where one evening. The girl who went head over heels at the sight of PiG and rabbit was gone. He was mine one day. His depart was expected tho. However, I am glad to be once hugged by him. Today... I miss him still. But I am happier than then. ************************ I heard the opera goes 'dok dok chang' on teevee. The 1st thing that come onto my mind everytime. My auntie. The good old days are back. Her pair of hands that used to hold me and tie my hair. The same pair of hand that helped me with wearing my school shoes and carrying my heavy school bag. The days she walked me to my school and shelther me on rainy days. Where have those times gone? Monday, May 02, 2005 Kinda enjoyed my day =D Tho Xin and I got to work in the afternoon and the responses weren't that good.We headed back to my place for mahjong with Ying Shan and LW. I lost a lot and YS is the Big winner! Lol~ I wanna learn from Xin lotsa things man! I can't practice what I pearch. =/ |
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I believe - The past is not for us to dwell on. Move on when it's time, for not anyone, but yourself. Eyes make me blind - Myself Simple girlie, 21 going 22, Gemini likes... Friends, DancingToMyBeat, RetrO, Chcolate, Lavender, FreedOm, Truth, PurpLe, HugoBoss, TheatreArts, VirginSuicides, Reading wishes for... Nothing much. I just want to be happy. hugo boss">hugo boss">hugo boss">Hugo Bosss [Deep Red], student card of NAFA archives February 2005 Other People ---- links my pixies!
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