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Thursday, April 28, 2005 I was strolling home when the urgh of drinking 'teh' hits me. I was hungry anyway, so I bought for myself some food as I got my 'teh'. I was sipping it as I was walking home frowning at the hot weather. I am reminded of something.When I was younger, one of the happinest moments for me would be my uncle calling back home to ask if we wanted to have supper (which usually means prawn mee/satay) If he calls back home before 10pm, he would asked if we wanted to drink 'teh' or coffee. Be it just a simple pack of 'teh', my eyes would be lighten up instandly and I will wait eagerly for him to be back! My cousins and I will rushed to the kitchen preparing cups and chats happily! I would drank it so so so slowly, not that it is hot, just that I can't bear to finish the last drop =) Don't laugh at my sillyness and my innocent days. It's just a part of my happiness when I was young. A pack of 'teh' could make my day and left me grins like a cat in the past. Is it that our expectations grow as we grow? Or are we losting the grip on how to be contented? It seems to me that this days, lots of people are almost never seems contented with their lives. Happiness becomes a thing too hard for them. It is the smaller things that contributes to happiness. I believe that it is all around us if we understand the meaning of being contented. Tuesday, April 26, 2005 25 ApriL 2005I saw Alvin today. (^(oo)^) Was reminded of Dr PiG, stew rabbit, doodles drew by him to me =D, looonng MSN chats, IS projects, tennis, ice-skating, rollarblading, elves names, all stuffs we talked about... It was a pleasent surprise. =) (-(oo)-) Hmmm... don't really know what is the right way to express how I feel when I saw him, one thing for sure... I am very very HAPPY! =D~~~ Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity. School's starting soon tho I have no idea when. If I told you that I am not at all bothered by it, I lied. Putting up a brave front is a norm for me. A norm that will eventually led to some true stuffs tho, congrats me on that =) I am scare. Scare of hearing questions like 'eh, why are you here?', ' I thought you grad?'... They are just asking the obvious. Are they expecting an answer like 'oh, I love NP too much, so I just wanna visit it more often cause I am too free.' or stuffs like 'I miss gerry cheong and hope to see him again.' ... I shall wear a tag indicating that I repeat. I am scare. I am scare of bumping into ML and her friends when I am alone. It spoils her day no doubt, but it will definetly spoil mine. Half a day the most. I am scare. I am scare of pair/group work. Who shall I pair up with? Whose group shall I join? Haizz... I have enrolled in a course at a private school, something which I really like and keen on. I hope I can do well. In fact, it's more of like I MUST do well. The fees are expensive. This is the route I wanted and choose, it determines and shape my future in a way. I will not let my Mom down. =) I hope to say good bye to those rotten times in Np, but the fact is that I can't. Maybe I shall be glad that the time I spend in school will be lesser. Always look on the bright side of life =) I will have a way out. Sunday, April 24, 2005 Fallen sick again. Headache and stuffs... Arghh... Pain all over my body. =( Slept so much yesterday! Haha...Stayed home for the whole day with the company of my bed and VCDs. I am bored and hungry... Haizz.. Friday, April 22, 2005 Lotsa food... A lot of food today!!!!The truth is that NP loves me too much to let me go. In another words, I repeat =) Yeah... It sucks big time. Went out with Xin today and I got for myself another turtle! Got a new job as a surveyor... Haha which means that I will be working with Xin!! Money Money... Headed down to somewhere near habourfront for lotsa food after the briefing with Xin, YingShan and HuiWen!!! Gosh... They ordered sososo much food! 1st time I tasted some of theose food as well! Woo~~ FuN!!! Thursday, April 21, 2005 Results will be release in 7 hours time. Good luck to everyone and to me =)If I graduate successfully.... =D laughs... I shall... Take the 1st step towards my goaL of course. Had enough rest actually, so next week onwards, I'll be seeking for ways towards my goals! Hahahah... In my mind, it's all well-plan! BeautifuL thoughts of how I should go about it. Am determine to fill my new chapter with exciting stuffs! Awww... I will treat myself some yummy food. If NP loves me too much to let me go... I shall... Continue being a sardine by squeezing on to bus 74 every morning. Meeting Ming to go to town for movie after school. I will still treat myself to food. Not interested in thinking too much about it. Am prepared for this anyway. Little Brandon is such a sweetie. Am not kidding. haha Monday, April 18, 2005 Enjoyed my day! Happy =)But someone kind of spoil my day when he called and lectured me on something I had set my mind on. It's alright cause I understand that he cares, but I dislike the way he 'joked' about it. oh well... His CME teacher is a failure. =X I know what I want =) I can't go JB with my friends ... =( I am happy today. But not tomorrow. I have been happy for a week. I hope after tomorrow, I will be happy again. I know what I am doing, but then again, maybe not. It's my independent nature and I had long figured out a way to pick me up. For I am digging my own grave step by step. I don't need one to understand, just be there =) It's just another phrase. I am just too bored I guess. Boredom is always the main culprit. It's nothing really, just stop elaborating on any thinkings and will win half the battle within. The winning formula. I want to be more independent than I am now. I want to walk with my head lifted up higher than now. I want to go for my dreams and be free from everything that is holding me back. If I can bid NP goodbye, no similar current situations will I allow myself to be dwell in. It's a BIG 'NO' =) NP is wasting my time. What if I really gotta repeat? Oh nooo.... Sunday, April 17, 2005 Boring Sunday, April 17, 2005… At least I can sleep till 2 in the afternoon! Lol… I shall not complain since lots of people are currently envy of my life. I have NOTHING to do everyday. I need to find something to do because boredom is killing mee… Arghh… I am consider jobless as well… M1 has no more deployment for Samsung promoters in TBC, so now I am only left with SingteL and Starhub outlets to go… In other words, I am more broke than ever. Half thanks to the porm night. =(I am a 100% TV freak today for I sat in front of the box since 430 till 1100… I had nothing to do and I am BORED! I caught ‘zhen qing’ for the 3rd time in the afternoon. Anyway, Kate and Leopold was a nice movie. Caught it at Marina Sq. some years back with Wen, Eugene and yew onn… Haha… I watched to refresh my memories. Switched to Channel u for that movie by Vanness Wu after ‘Kate and Leopold’. That show contains too much violence and it was kind of boring if you ask me. Vanness is cool as usual. Am watching ‘100 tales of horror’ on channel 8 right now as I am writing this entry. haha I guess I ate too much ice-cream in the afternoon… Feeling kinda sick now… Suffering from breathing difficulties recently. Argh… I have an urge to eat the ‘yong dou fu’ that my uncle used to buy for me in Chinatown. =) Feels like having some sushi as well. Jer msg me, I thought I saw Ger.. Friday, April 15, 2005 13 ApriL 2005Took little Brandon to polyclinic for his jancdice test today together with my anutie and uncle. The naughty boy slept throughout the journey... Such a sweetie he is =) Met up with Jason and GY at dinner time. 14 ApriL 2005 There are lots of nice pictures on flickr! am looking at some pictures on cats, all nicely taken =) Bought a top today, but it ended up with Ming... Forget to get it back from him, and now, I gotta think of how to get it back... DarL finally got the jumper that she has been searching for! Look at her face, smile SO widely and her eyes spankle when she saw that jumper! It's true, she looks like what I had just discribed! haha.. I like my top too =) It's only a day, and I started to miss little Brandon! =D Will be going over to my biao jie's place again tomorrow and help my auntie to take care of him! Tired + happy = Very happy! --->> Unique combination =) 15 ApriL 2005 Happy 20th BrthdAy my dearest EeLyn! I love You lots! muacks!!! Tuesday, April 12, 2005 My sleeping debt is piling up everyday, how I wish the money in my pocket will pile up too.sleeping in a hospital is really NO fun! I am aching all over now, but the thought of my Brandon boy, the pain is gone! =D Will be bringing him for injection tomorrow! Haha... I got the manjong fever from the guys and I am kinda good in it! Hahaha... Monday, April 11, 2005 eww.. I am not at all impress by irresposible human beings out there. You are NOT at all awesome boy! ewww...Anyway, will be going out soon. Meeting up with Lyn for dinner then I'll be heading down to KK hospital to keep my cousin company =) Which also means that I can acc little Brandon as well! =D I went to the hospital earlier, as I looked at the most beautiful boy, something in me melted... The way he yawns and suck his thumb... The book of his life has just begin, and mine, will be opening up a new chapter soon. I hope his book will be full of happiness and laughters. I hope mine will continue with happiness and laughters as well =) Sunday, April 10, 2005 9th ApriL 2005I love this day! Simply because it is the birthday of my little Brandon! Awww... I have been offically promoted to being Auntie Ling. He looks so sweet sleeping in his little cot and being wrap in the blue towel! =D I love baby Brandon!! The porm night was okay, the food were great if you ask me! Haha.. Spent so much on it and it's over in less than a few hours... I didn't win any prizes tho =( the ipod that I had been eyeing on all the while was been carried home by happy Arron! haha... Headed down to rouge after that and I had the most boring clubbing experience ever. I could count the number of people on the dance floor with my fingers, the music sucks and I couldn't redeem my last drink cause the club is closing at 3am and I didn't realise it until 2:58am... =/ It's so dumb! 18 bucks... Had some fun with Ivan and peeps tho.. Slept over at Lyn's place after rouge and she cooked noodle for me =D I guess most of us make mistakes every now and then, bad stuffs or like what some call it as a 'bad patch' happens before we know it. The point here is not how many times we make the same mistakes or how many 'bad patches' we got. It's just sums up that we have to learn to avoid the same mistakes, how to deal with 'bad patches' and hold our heads high up again. Never let anyone looks down on us, and of course on another note, we shall not look down on anyone too! =) Friday, April 08, 2005 06 ApriL 2005Weee~~~ DarL brought Q-mor girl out today! She is sososososo cute and pretty with big round eyes and q-mor hair! Looks just like a doll =) I realised that almost everyone will looked at her while we were shopping, eating or even just waiting for the bus. She is too cute to be resist! We took noe-prints! Haha . Headed to my 2nd aunt's place for dinner at commonwealth before I went to C&K for my first pair of heels! Well... I spent a BOMB on the porm night... =( But did I mention that the lucky draw prizes are attactive? Lol... Let's have a look at what I might get below =D Prize 1st ------------->> 4GB Ipod Mini MP3 Player 2nd ------------->> 1 GB Ipod Muvu MP3 Player 3rd ------------->> 512MB Ipod Shuffle MP3 Player 4th ------------->> All-In-One Printer 5th -------------->> DVD Player 6th -------------->> Portable VCD Player with Speaker 7th -------------->> Electronic Tooth Brush 8th & 9th -------->> 256 MB Thumb Drive 10th ------------->> Pan Pacific Hotel High Tea Voucher for 2 11th-20th -------->> $20 Takashimaya Cash Voucher 21st-25th -------->> $20 Bugis Junction Cash Voucher 26th-30th -------->> $20 Carrefour Cash Voucher 31st-35th --------->> $10 Coffee Bean Cash Voucher 36th-40th --------->>$10 Sakae Sushi Cash Voucher I don't expect much, just a MP3 will do me good. What do you think? =) 07 ApriL 2005 Went town with WJ and LW for their porm night shirt. They look real good in collar shirt! Guys in collar shirt never fail to mesmerize. Just like guys who play the piano and water sports! Haha... Yeah, I am currently having a fetish for those who play the grand piano and as usual, for those who play water sports! My lappy is partially screwed. I can't read hotmails and blah blah blah... and it's tempting me to reformat it before my warrantly ends. It's just that I have too many stuffs in this deteriorating lappy of mine. It's getting old, just like me. Ha... Memories of my 3 years poly life.. Happy, sad, etc... The happinest thing to look at in my lappy will be those doodles that Alvin drew! Haha... It's ugly, but it's one of the sweetest things I got in this 3 years considering the fact that he was willing to spent time colouring it. haha Time flies and when I look back, shamefulness hit me. I finally realise that I had wasted 3 years and had achieved nothing at all. Anyway, I just want to pass my final sem and get out of np asap now. I want to get a life and till my results being release, my life's an uncertainty. Anyone to guide me please? It's high time to think about the future now i guess... I mean I might be graduating, which also means the drawing of the curtain of every lectures, tutorials and practicals... hahaha! But where + what should I do after this? Haizz.. All my '1st' days of school! 1st day in PAP Kathy jie jie was the one who brought me to school! The day before, my 3 biao jies and I were lying on my aunt's bed and they were really excited about me going to school! I was told that I would learned a lot of things and would made a lot of new friends in school! Lots of other kids were crying when the teacher closed the classroom door I remember, but, being the bravest girl, I didn't cry at all! haha... I merely sat and stared at the new environment and at those screaming kids. I guess this was the 1st time I am alone outside without my family members. 1st day in Pearl Park SchooL My Mom took her day off for the start of my primary education. I was really excited I remember. The uniform was the thing that got me so excited (don't ask me why, I have no idea too), it's a blue pinofold with a white button shirt inside.Those traditional type of uniform I would say. I woke up fresh at 0600 on the dot (1st day mar) and my mom sent me to school. My form teacher, Mrs Tan, assigned me to a primary 4 indian girl with 2 braids during recess time and well... I don't understand a single thing she said. Other than cantonese and a bit of chinese, I know nuts. haha... So most of the time I just stared at her that day. I remember she was a nice senior tho. My 1st friend was a girl with short hair called Mei Ee cause her mom know my mom. lol.. Oh yar, all the teachers adore me! =P 1st day in Pearls' Hill SchooL I was transfered to PHS in primary 3 and so, I had to kiss goodbye to my pinofold and changed to something all white, both Top and skirt... Nothing much on the first day, just felt unhappy. I disliked that school at first because it's quite far from home... I took a school bus shortly after I got transfered tho... I hated that school bus as well... There was this boy who bullied me everyday on the bus, he pinced my nose and pulled my hair as long as I saw him. He got caning from the principal for doing that to me cause I cried one day and my uncle complained. haha. Anyway, I got lots of good memories in PHS! Talentime with Sook Lee and Linda, Miss Foong and how we hid ourselves in the playground when we saw her red umbralla, most importantly, it's where Jie Yi and I started on our friendship! I love that school now! 1st day in Gan Eng Send Green skirt white blouse after my all white uniform. I was kinda sad on the 1st day cause most of my friends were being posted to Outram... Am quite alone if not for JiaQi! My cousin, who was being posted to the same school. I was shocked to see only 10 girls in my class and my 1st friend in GESS was Angela. Talked to Melissa during netball and found out that we both love to sing! We were dwelled in the world of Jeff Chang and Daniel Chan then! Ee Lyn is the tall and hardworking girl at the back of my class and I was glad that she taught me maths during Sec2 for that's where our friendship started off! 1st day in Np Shall always remember how darL signal me over to the sit next to her's. Frankly speaking, I find it very funny! lol.. We went for the games organized by ICT and we kept looking at 'dong shi'! Xin left early with her 'nu ren' I remember and she was wearing a yellow tee with bee! (I find it cute lar!) Nothing much actually, poly was way too boring. Maybe I was too lazy to take part in anything, but other than my friends, nothing good happened since the day I went poly. Everything just went downslope and I got countless times of 'bad patch'. I hope the 'bad patch' will be over soon. I seriously hate my life now if you ask me. I will not let it continue the way it is. I am out of the 'school' thing... No more a school girl. =) Monday, April 04, 2005 Went PS just now... For my ugly finger nails. Susan was working there today and I saw a girl's backview who really resembles her. Haha... She sms me shortly after I left PS and I was shock she was actually working there. Lol... Anyway, CHEER UP MISS SUSAN!Am quite anxious over the application thingy. Lol... Hope to get shortlisted seriously, but i reckon the interview's going to be that smooth for me even if I get shortlist. It's okay, no pain no gain. =) Sunday, April 03, 2005 feeling feverish again. Falling sick every now and then this year. Sickness falls in love with me.I feel bad. Friday, April 01, 2005 I am happy. I am not. Rare combination.Most importantly, can you please be happy. =) I hope that you will always be. I am so bored. Everybody is probably sleeping already. I slept at 9pm and woke up at 12am. Something's not right. Haha Anyway, Hope everyone has a SiLLy April Fool's Day! =D I suddenly remember those times in primary school when Jieyi n peeps actually bought itchy powder to make fun of Mr Sim, my bald chinese cum PE teacher. Hahaha... Well, I took part in it too. =P We looked silly! Happy 21st Birthday to Huineng too!! Oops, can't go out with him today, paper tomorrow. Poor me. I must study hard later. =) Trust me please. |
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I believe - The past is not for us to dwell on. Move on when it's time, for not anyone, but yourself. Eyes make me blind - Myself Simple girlie, 21 going 22, Gemini likes... Friends, DancingToMyBeat, RetrO, Chcolate, Lavender, FreedOm, Truth, PurpLe, HugoBoss, TheatreArts, VirginSuicides, Reading wishes for... Nothing much. I just want to be happy. hugo boss">hugo boss">hugo boss">Hugo Bosss [Deep Red], student card of NAFA archives February 2005 Other People ---- links my pixies!
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